Enough of negativity

Sometimes it feels as if I was walking through a long, dark and lonely tunnel. During this time, nothing around me is any different from before, the same old doldrums and problems and boring menial tasks are there, but the only thing that changes is the way I see them. I can’t control it very well, and the entire week had me seeing things in the most tiring and saddest way I could. Like I had a cloak over my head that kept sucking all my energy and desire to be connected to anyone. It’s pretty horrible.

Sometimes it happens after a long spell of being happy and content; one minute I’m on the moon and the next I’m stuck in the land of sorrows. Anything anyone says to me just starts a whole long neurotic trip and I find myself lost.

It helps that I have many really supportive friends around, and a social network that is there to catch me when I fall. I can’t help but think that when something horrible really does happen, would I sink even further into that abyss? Scary thought.

So thank you to my buffers; thanks T and HC and anyone else who made it easier with a smile and a hug.

Now, enough of that blackness and nonsense – for now!

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