everything is fun for a while then it rots

It’s true, fun, that’s the one most ephemeral thing I know. You think you found it, found a little spot of happiness and peace but then it gets ripped right out from under your unsuspecting nose and then once again, you are unhappy. It’s gone.

The sucky thing about that is that once it’s gone, nothing much will bring it back.

Some things act as milestones; when you are 2 months old, you’ll learn to roll over. At 3 months, you can lift your head up to look at people. At 9 months, you walk, and have your first fall. In relationships too, there are milestones – some of them aren’t as happy as walking, and the accidents that occur are more painful than the first falls you have because unlike them, these accidents stay in your memory.

I try to stay thankful for my moments, for the gifts in this life that have been so kindly left at my feet. So perhaps too I’m thankful for the little falls, the heartbreaks, and future disagreements. But I have been so unhappy with myself lately.

Perhaps I will stop playing WoW for a while.

It’s doing things to me.

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